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of all, I want to confess my worst sin against you. It was the feeling I had that you "did not understand."
When I look back over it now, I know that you did understand. You understood me better than I did myself. Your wisdom flowed around mine like the ocean around an island.
And how patient you were with me! How full of long-suffering, and kindness!
And how pathetic, it now comes home to me, were your efforts to get close to me, to win my confidence, to be my pal!
I wouldn't let you. I couldn't. What was it held me aloof? I don't know. But it is tragic-that wall that rises between a boy and his father, and their frantic attempts to see through it and climb over it.
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I wish you were here now, across the table from me, just for an hour, so that I could tell you how there's no wall any more; I understand you now, Dad, and, God! how I love you, and wish I could go back and be your boy again.
I know now how I could make you happy every day. I know how you felt.
Well, it won't be long, Dad, till I am
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